The other day I was really stressed about where my friends and I were going to live next year. It’s been a difficult process since we tried making sure that we didn’t offend any of our friends or leave anyone out. We searched and contemplated living in about 8 different places, that might be a stretch but you get the point. Well we did all this worrying and for what? We have a place to live everything worked out AND we will be living close to some of our other really close friends. So it’s going to be a great senior year. (Yes, I’m sure about half of you just shuddered at the word because I know I did.)
Well during this whole ordeal this week I was also loaded with homework in a two day period and was really overwhelmed thinking I wasn’t going to get half of it done. I got most of it done before bed on Tuesday and just sat in bed thinking about what I still had to do and worried about what Wednesday would bring. I got up at 8:45. That’s only 45 minutes later than I had planned on getting up for my 9:30 class. I hadn’t showered since Sunday afternoon? See when you can’t remember when you last showered it’s been too long. Well what’s another day added to that, so I got up put on jeans and a sweatshirt, brushed my teeth and was ready to leave at 9:05. I don’t think I have ever been ready that early. Well I walk to class with a girl that I live with and I was waiting for her to come down. I called up to her room and didn’t get a response so I walked up there and she was still in bed, panicked and got ready in about 7 minutes. We left the house by 9:17. Not bad, that’s about the normal time we leave and we get to class right in time but we had really wanted to get coffee before class. Well we got to the corner by the coffee shop and it was 8:23. We both looked at each other and said, “How did that happen?” It usually takes us like 10 minutes to walk to class. Well we clearly had time to get coffee and walked inside and then we didn’t know what we wanted and when we left it felt like we had been in there longer than 4 minutes according to our clocks. We walked to class and still got there a minute before class. It didn’t feel like real life. Well in class our Professor told us that we wouldn’t be having class on Friday or Monday. This was starting to be a great day and I had done all that worrying for nothing. (Sorry that was a really long short story that only Kels and I will think is cool.)
This all got be thinking about why we should not worry so much. Of course I’ll worry at times, that’s just our nature but we need to remind ourselves that what we think is going to happen and what God has been are sometimes further apart than we could have ever imagined. What do we really know about this world? How do we know what is going to happen? It’s plain and simple: we don’t. Here’s the crazy thing about God, it doesn’t matter what we say or what others say, he is the omnipotent and with him ANYTHING is possible. There are many things that I have learned within the last few months actually that have been crazy awesome God moments and miracles.
1. Miracle: I learned that when doctors say, “It is almost impossible for you to have a baby,” what he is really saying is, “Clearly I don’t know a God that is all powerful.” My parents were told they wouldn’t be able to have kids and now they have 3. 1-God, 0-Doctors. I have two cousins who were told that it would be nearly impossible for them to have any kids or anymore kids. One just had a beautiful baby girl and my other cousin who already has a rockin’ little son is expecting a second child. 3-God 0-Doctors. I am positive there are several other cases like this. We just need to continue to be in prayer and ask God for guidance and for us to be patient with HIS plan for us.
2. Moment: As many of you know I have an awesome younger brother who I used to think was as annoying as a mosquito buzzing by my face and I would pick on him any chance I got. Well times have changed and now he’s not the little boy that I always picked on. For one of his college applications he had to write an essay and he saved it on my laptop. I found it the other day and couldn’t help myself from tearing up because of what a great example he has been for me in my walk with Christ. He has grown up to be such a great young man and as much as I’d love for him to come to Hope next year I know that where ever God leads him he is going to be a great spiritual leader.
3. Moment: Yesterday in chapel the worship team sang a new song and the lyrics were:
Why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows my needs
God is in control
Or something close to that. It was the perfect reminder to the start of my Friday.
4. Miracle: I just spent the evening being a third wheel and I didn’t want to kill myself every 2 minutes. Seriously though it wasn’t that bad except the continual reminders that I remain single and will until God decides I’m ready.
So wake up each morning asking God, “ Help me to live my life and giving you all the glory in everything I do. And help me to be patient for the times when what I have planned doesn’t work out. To not worry and to remember you are in control.”
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